Pashminas and Aurats

I bought a black with purple squares pashmina today, or to be exact, yesterday. It cost 5 times more than Yaya's does. Maybe it's the fact that it's sold in KLCC or it's 100% silk that makes it so expensive. Hmph. I did watch YouTube to look for those pashmina tutorials, but most of them either require super long shawls or don't cover the breasts like it should be covered. Alas, I wrapped it around my head like I don't really know how but it covers the breasts perfectly. Mission accomplished *speaking in the bot tone like in Bejeweled Blitz* boo yeah *speaking like Ron in Kim Possible, because Ron Weasley doesn't say "boo yeah"*

But the downside is, oh wait, maybe it's the upside because it's up? Hahaha no, it's still the downside. My back's not perfectly covered as in it's not long enough! This is so devastating T.T Aaaaanyway, I'll wear my cardigans or jackets whenever I wear this pashmina and BOOM I'm good to go to perform my prayers. 

Sins and Rewards

There were times in my life when I made sins enough to send me to hell even when compared to my rewards. During those times, all posts on the Internet about the sins I made were ignored. I scrolled past them. Somehow, I managed to get a grip on myself with the small piece of iman I had left and fixed myself up. But then I sank so low yet again. Now I'm determined to not go back there into the dark place. The end of the world is so near, I can't afford to make any more sins or it'll be hell for me. I think I'll make a "sin jar". Hmm every time I make a sin, I have to put in a lot of cash so I won't do it again or else I'll have nothing to eat or spend on. It's probably not good enough but it's worth a shot. No more sins, Dania, please.

Friends

Jangan engkau bersahabat dengan sahabat yang mana dia begitu berharap kepada engkau ketika mahu menyelesaikan masalahnya sahaja sedangkan apabila masalah atau hajatnya telah selesai maka dia memutuskan kemanisan persahabatan. Bersahabatlah dengan mereka yang mempunyai ketinggian dalam melakukan kebaikan, memenuhi janji dalam perkara yang benar, memberi pertolongan kepada engkau serta memadai dengan amanahnya atau sikap bertanggungjawabnya terhadap engkau. -Imam Umar bin Abdul Aziz

 Somehow this reminds me of someone I know. Somehow also, when I read this, only two person come to mind, Atiqah and Mariah. No wonder I can never find the heart to truly hate them.

Hating

I know hating isn't good for the health, mind, or my sanity, but I can't seem to not hate one of my ex-best friend. Even the thought of her being my ex makes me squirm, out of annoyance, not fright. If anyone out there can give me some tips to not hate someone, please do share your knowledge. It hurts to hate, I can't help hating, but it still hurts because the anger inside me is bottled up, I don't know when I'll explode. When I explode, it's not going to look good :/

Tomorrow I have to sit within 1 metre of her in the car. Ya Allah, please let her not speak to me, please let me not explode, please bestow upon me great patience, please occupy me with something else so I will not explode. Ameen.

Atiqah --> Japan

I knew Atiqah was going to Japan, but I either didn't remember the date or she didn't tell me. Well, now I know. She's off today at 11 pm. It seemed like just yesterday I was as excited as her to go to Europe, but it's actually almost a year. How time flies by when you're having fun, or occupied, or don't keep track. Anyway, I hope she'll have a safe trip going there and coming back here. She'll enjoy herself there, since she's really a Japanese die hard fan. I'll pray for her safety. Bye bye Atiqah :)

Parting Poem

Dear friend,

Think of this as a parting message from me.

We used to be so so so close, 

people thought we were twins.

Now we are so so distant, 

No longer glued at our skins.

You probably don't realize this,

But you only seek for me,

When you only want my help,

Now I only hear you plea.

You have found new friends,

Ones that you left me for,

So I have come to the conclusion,

That I am not worth anything anymore.

So now dear old friend, 

I hope you enjoy your brand new life,

Because you'll never find someone like me,

Whose heart you slashed with a knife.

Your used to be best friend,

Dania

Very Vain Speech for Boyfriend's Birthday

It's Aiman's 15 birthday today (30th November 2011)! Since I won't be able to fit my tedious speech in your itty bitty birthday card, which I bought, not made, I will type the speech here.

Dear shorty Aiman,

So you finally turned fifteen, kan :) That took a long time, considering I was born 6 months ahead of you *insert proud face here*. Be sure to act like a man since you're one now, dah akil baligh dah kan, no more pijak2 kasut lah, tak gentleman lew, tapi aku boleh <-- very unfair childish girlfriend. You even got a new watch. I'm not sure if I should put the word "new" because you don't have a watch before so.........yeah.... But anyway, I'm sure the watch is not fit for girls ahem, women like me. Oh mine is a perfect fit, and not to mention how classy my wristwatch looks. Even if your wrists are small (I know yours are just a tad bigger than mine), you'll grow into it. I just hope no one will give you the same type of present I'm giving you :/ that would be a bummer, since the brand is so classy (ceh!). Sorry mok-mok, I look at the brand more than I look at the design when I chose the gift, so I just really really hope you'll like it, love it if I'm lucky! I told you my speech will be tedious. Next year, when most of your friends, including your best friend-slash-girlfriend turn 16, you'll still be 15. But that doesn't mean you can slack off thinking you're too young for this and that and whatnots. And you're growing now, a lot, so you can kiss all my "short" comments on your height goodbye. I love you, Aiman. Happy Birthday :)

Awesomely typed by,

Dania